inner turmoil

either im a bad mom, really selfish, or i am taking full advantage of the best thing ever....

i get to leave the 110 degree heat and go to the 80 degree heavenly newport beach tomorrow for another week of pure bliss....

im a bad mom because berkeley will miss her first day of school ever because i want to go to the beach...we are also missing her preschool orientation... selfish...

and then there is beckham who still has an ear infection in one ear and swimmers ear in the other....bad mom. i know.

but....its a beach house for a week...just me, my kiddos, and my mom.

that's my justification.

i don't feel so bad anymore.

our [stay]cation

6 years. that number makes me feel so old! although marriage is a great thing, its not perfect. i am very happy in my marriage but i am also glad that we have challenges. i am glad that i still get excited when todd comes home every day, and i am glad that we still cant agree on where we will go to dinner. i am glad that he is a good dad, and i am glad that he thinks having a baby is the hardest thing on earth. i am glad i have a partner to play tennis with, compete with, hang out with, parent with, go on dates with, eat with, watch my tv shows with, fight with, and that loves me back. i love you hub.

to celebrate these insane 6 years we went to the W hotel in scottsdale for 24 hours. todds sister brooke watched the kids for us which in itself is a great anniversary gift! we went to the mall and had dinner and shopped a little, then came back and hung out at the pool for a while. then we slept in, again.....the best ever!..... and went back to the pool for a few more hours of relaxing. may i just say that this hotel is fabulous! I absolutely love the decor and vibe that it has. i was so mad i forgot my camera because i wanted to take pictures of every single decor detail. it was a great stay-cation and i think we need to do it every year.

the cool lounge that i was in love with
poolside at the end of the day....thats why i look so fabulous
a different view of the amazing pool area
blurry because it was taken from my phone

my gimpy

poor berkeley fell out of her bed saturday night. she woke up hurting so badly she couldn't walk! i didn't realize she couldn't walk until we were almost ready for church....and if i wake up and get ready for church, i am GOING to church! so we had to carry her to and from the car and to and from the seats. after church i took her to urgent care to see if it was broken. 2 1/2 hours later....ugghh..... we found out nothing severe was wrong, so they gave us a mini ace bandage and sent us home. that day she was so depressed and not herself. either i would carry her from one place to another, or she would crawl. it was really sad to see. you could see her spirits getting down, poor thing! by mid day on monday she started taking baby steps, and by tuesday morning she was walking, but with a limp. today she is still limping, so she just needs to tough it out a little more. poor thing...who knew falling out of a bed would be so dangerous!

my favorite kiddos

{grin}

i am so excited to finally {5 months later} have beckham a happy baby. he hasn't been the worst baby in the world, but definitely not the easiest baby. he would only sleep for about 3o minutes for his naps since day one, and i seriously was SO frustrated. so finally this week he is FINALLY taking 3 2-3 hour long naps. honestly it is the best thing ever. i already have found myself thinking about my next baby...then i think how much i hate being pregnant and i quickly drop that idea. beckham is so much more happy and so am i. {grin}


[beckhams medicine to get rid of thrush turned his mouth purple]

ahhhh.....newport {sigh}

20 adults, and 29 kids sums up our family newport trip this year. as much fun as we had, it was sure exhausting. i feel like going on vacation all of the sudden makes me more tired than it does relax me. i guess welcome to life with 2 kids!

newport was amazing again this year. i think my favorite part was the weather. it was beautiful. every day the sun was out all day, there was always a perfect breeze, and the ocean water was surprisingly tolerable. i have always loved newport my whole life but i feel like this year i fell in love with it all over again. seeing dolphins every day does add to the appeal. i could have stayed out on that beach for 2 more weeks, from 10am to 6pm every day....and so could berkeley.

i kind of feel bad because as i went through my pictures, i did not take ONE picture of beckham. is that a bad mom or what?!? the days he was out on the beach with us he was...tolerable....not easy, not totally hard....but tolerable. i was lucky to have him stay at the house 2 whole days while my sister watched him one day and my cousin watched him another, and it was really nice to just relax and not have to worry about a fussy baby all day. berkeley was a gem. she is the most easy going, happy, mild mannered kid i know. she is basically content to do anything. she would play in the sand for hours, go out in the water with us and dive under waves, swim in the ocean where she couldn't touch, and jump over the little waves with her cousins.

as far as the other aspects of the trip....i have never stayed inside the house as much as i did this year....2 kids and all...and i absolutely LOVED running along the boardwalk with my sister looking at all the amazing houses. i loved seeing berkeley bond with her cousins and remember all of their names, and always ask for them when they weren't with her. i loved seeing her wake up carley every morning because she was so excited just to play. we played nertz a few of the nights, which i don't know why, but we become insanely out of our minds when we play. we laugh until we cry, and we constantly say the dumbest funniest things ever. i love that!

what a great tradition that my family has....i truly love it every year!

some of the adults...all in a row

one of berkeley favorites of the week....cole

all the warner cousins + amies 2 babies

we know...its illegal to catch star fish, but i couldn't resist letting her hold one.

looking at the crabs

our favorite ice cream shop....we always ride bikes and walk to the ice cream shop and my mom buys ice cream for everyone. the owners remember us every year. they are really sweet people.

until next year....

2009.07.04

i think 4th of july is my second favorite holiday. {christmas of course is my 1st} i think i have loved it all of my life. i am a total summer person, and it is such a family oriented holiday with warm and fuzzy memories. we were in carlsbad again this year carrying on the farnsworth family tradition and stayed for a week. the weather was beautiful and perfect, and our resort was even more perfect. so many times while we were there i kept thinking it felt like we were in hawaii. on the 4th we started the day with swimming all day. then we met up with family friends for a bbq outside in the large grass area, and played a little sports while we were out there. then we went back to the pool area for games, smores, and then fireworks. we put beckham to bed and kept our phones as monitors so we could thoroughly enjoy the evening, and may i say, it was a good decision to put him to bed! berkeley loved the whole day. the kids got glow sticks and she thought that it was perhaps the most clever thing ever. when the fireworks came she absolutely loved those as well. she had to make sure and sit with different people during the show so she could enjoy it with everyone. like always it was such a fun 4th.....that's why its my favorite.

making smores

my baby boy

watching fireworks with nana
then with dada

lovely weekend

i really have had a 'lovely' weekend. i love when todd is just home with me and the kiddos and spends lots of time with us. friday night he took me out for my birthday for a 'just us' date, and we went to AZ-88...which is amazing! it was so nice to be just us 2. we have not gone on a single date in a long time. then saturday morning todd took berkeley swimming for 2 hours and i got a chance to get caught up with cleaning and laundry. i love watching them together. todd is the sweetest dad and plays with berkeley so much. i love to see her excitement when he plays with her. then saturday evening my parents came to town for a quick trip and then my brothers family came over for a BBQ. we made carne asada burritos and went swimming. berkeley loved every second of hanging out with her cousins. right when every one showed up she got really shy and went into the dining room and hid in the corner for literally 5 minutes. then she quickly warmed up...

i love summer weekends. they are the best!

AZ-88 ...my handsome hub

my favorite teenagers....rilee and ansley

cousin clay

my little fish berkeley

i can't believe it....but i'm 26!

my birthday was a great day. i started my day off with todd waking up with the kids and letting me sleep in which is always the best! then todd got me some cute gifts.....he got me tennis balls for all the tennis we have been playing, a new toilet seat because our broken on has been driving me crazy, and an iPhone holder for when i workout because i have been holding it in my sports bra! then i took beckham to the doctor, then i left berkeley at home and me todd and beckham went to the mall to spend some of my birthday money. then for dinner todds parents took us to stax in scottsdale for a birthday dinner which was delish! to top off the night, todds mom made me a delicious red velvet cake which so SO good. thanks all for the calls and texts and cards. i love feeling so loved!

•••i did it•••

the last 3 days have started a new era for us in our house. berkeley is finally going to the bathroom on the potty. she finally realized that it is fun and it is doable. it took me giving in, and bribing her with m&m's instead of stickers, which totally didn't work. she is not to the point of telling us, but she will go when we take her. so we are still not there, but we have taken huge strides. im so proud of my almost 3 year old!

her favorite pink tinkerbelles
eating her prize


this week todd and i discovered how fun tennis is. we have been playing each other each night after the kids go to bed and it is so fun. its a great summer night thing for us to do together. the best part is is that we are about the same skill level so we never know who is going to win. besides the occasional racket throw by todd it is really fun.